I could tell you never read it or at least taking a pessimistic view of it. Bottom line is that what your H is going through is going to take understanding. The book explains it all. It's not going to explain exactly why your H is going through what he's doing, but it's a start.
All I see you doing is trying to analyze him when you don't really have the background to do so. And everyone's background is different. Start with the changes to yourself as described in the book and then detail them here for us to comment.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
