Wow, beer with h? I can understand what those nice moments are doing to you afterwards. It's the same for me. I guess, the time will change things but now it's still fresh. And actually, sometimes I doubt that with the time passing it will leave me cold. I think it will get easier, yes, but it will always be there. All those questions...
I'm sorry you are discovering his lies from years ago. Even if it happened years ago it still hurts, doesn't it?
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