I just wondered if there was any science behind the specifics of your stats...
Unfortunately - I would say yes.
Even if their is no other REAL human being their is almost always someone else. That may be a person that is a fantasy but whats the difference? I know that my ex worshipped romance novels and was in love with the men from those books.
Read Sandi's rules and start living them.
It is time to stop focusing on her and focus on someone you can control.