Job -- you are so right. I can't control what people think. And I'm discovering I'm a people pleaser so this is an issue I need to resolve. Today I dwelt on the fact that my H was my best friend and knew my deepest secrets for 17+ years. I have never been closer to another human being and he left me. And today is my birthday -- he texted twice about needed cash out of our joint acct -- but that was all.
Peace -- I hope I get there .. When it no longer hurts. I am working to fix my issues and hope something good will come out of this MLC. All I can see is the wrong I have done. But I know it is my self esteem. Everyone keeps telling me I'm better off, but I just want him back. Lol. I don't want to be better off, I want the pain to stop. In my heart, I know I don't want his evil selfish twin .. But I just miss him desperately.
Hi Coly -- so sorry to hear you too have been experiencing this. I am trying the best I can. I am so glad to have found this forum or I would have lost it already. My head hurts from crying so much the last few days. I was doing much better .. But I guess I have cycled backwards.
Me: 42 Him: 45 Daughter: 13 ____________________________________ Married 16 Years, Together 17 Years BD: 8/15/16 Moved out: 8/26/16
