I pray you find the strength to do what is right for the boys, for yourself ...
Just to bring this point home a bit more....
Doing what is right for the boys....???
Taking care of Jim, and making sure that Jim makes good, sound, rational decisions that affect him in a positive way. Making sure that Jim is of sound mind, body , and spirit, so that Jim can be the best Father that he can be. Taking his life in his terms, rather than taking crumbs, or accepting less than what he has worked for.
Jim being happy, and nurturing Jim's wants and needs, is ultimately...