FG - that was a good song suggestion. I'd never heard it.
I understand how you feel, I know things can feel like you are scamming your W into coming back, scamming yourself into being who you are not. I would suggest you take a second look. The 180, doing what works, the strategy - you should know by know that is all to be a BETTER you, not a different you. It is not about your W. If I am mistaken, I do apologize, but I am telling you this because I care about you as my friend. Your posts, they don't read like you are doing something that works for you. Your reply to Sara, even if meant in humor, seemed so self deprecating. I do not have the answer, you do. I am only asking that you keep searching for it inside yourself. I hope you had a good day today buddy.
You can also search for it on youtube - this is water.
"There is no more important fight than the one for ourselves. Keep on winning." Ginger1, Read her newbies. BD: Feb '16 D: Mar '17 Piecing: Putting the self back together was my piecing. S6