welp... saw WW many times this weekend again. Friday night she came over and we just hung out. Saturday we ran a 5k, went to breakfast, then later got dinner and went to a movie. On sunday, she came over to watch some football games.
I tried to keep bonds advice in mind and started with some light touching. At the movies, I kept my hand on her leg the entire time and she grasped it. At the 5k, it was rainy and cold so there were lots of hugs and holding to stay warm. She seems to be more touchy feely than I remember. She is quicker to initiate physical touch than me. Maybe it is because I gave her the love language book a few months ago and she figured out that that might be mine? I don't know. Anyway, she seems to be making an effort to touch me more (ie hold hand, hug, arm an arm etc).
I can't tell where my head is with all this. I feel like I should be giddy. I don't feel giddy. Should I be giddy? I told my mom that we had been hanging out for a few months. She asked how I felt about that, if it made me feel happy. I said, ya know, I don't really know how I feel about it. My mom was surprised by that response. Like if she would have bailed on me for the game today, I totally would not have even cared. Anyway, we keep on keeping on. I made plans to go to a special halloween thing next weekend with a bunch of really intricate carved pumpkins. Should be fun, I have wanted to do that anyway for a while.
I feel like we should go talk to someone real soon (WW had suggested it). I am not sure how/if we can rebuild things. I guess slow and steady? Anyone have an advice on how to find a good MC?
One final question. During all of this I have been planning a trip to cali and hawaii with friends, my brother and sister in may. I definitely want to go and who knows what will be WW's deal by then. Should I tell her about this? If things progress she could go but she would be worried about the cold shoulder from the group I am sure.
