Just checking in here to journal a bit. I've admittedly been reading on MLC alllllll morning and afternoon to get perspective on where his head may be at. I know, I know...my attempts at guessing are futile and pointless, but I think it's something that I need right now.
A couple things- a few weeks ago he mentioned moving away with a friend to a specific location and during our convo 2 days ago he mentioned moving back home to where his family is. I know he doesn't know WHAT he wants and maybe plan A fell through, but it is interesting to think he may go back to his childhood home... Even if it's a fleeting feeling for him. He hated it back there.Always complained about his family. According to him, they were horrible people and he dismissed many of them throughout the years.
Of course I'll never know what's going through his head and heart, but I wonder if he's wanting to reconnect or if he misses family in general. The only family he had here was my family. They accepted him, accommodated him, and welcomed him in with open arms. They felt the loss of his exit and were extremely sad to learn we were no longer together. Technically, he's been without family for almost 2 years now.
The other thing he mentioned during the convo was how he didn't expect the papers to get filed the day he filled them out. He made a comment about how he wasn't sure about filing that day, but the office encouraged it. What I got from it was there was a very brief hesitation about filing right then and there, but he thought it was best to help us both move forward so he did it.
Honestly, I don't know if I'm looking for a needle in a haystack here..... It's just clear that he doesn't know what he's doing and I have no idea if any of that uncertainty lies in me or the marriage.
Any thoughts or observations as an outsider looking in?
Me- 30's H- 40's T-10 M-5 I moved out b/c he wanted space- June 15 D filed by H: September 16
