Maybs - Pt 4 - where to now?

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It just seems crazy to me that they can forget all of that. but it also seems just as crazy that they can now claim there was nothing good about our M ever...

My W has been saying that I'm everything she never wanted... I don't even want to point out that that can't be true. You don't willingly marry someone whom you despise everything about. But I'm not going to argue with her about it, she needs to get there on her own.

Today is actually my birthday, I am going to meet up with my SIL for a girls shopping day and get dinner and stuff. I was going to go back up there for dinner tonight with the whole fam but she decided we needed an adult day so I will go see them again in the next couple of weeks. My niece sent me a video of her singing happy birthday to me this morning and it was the sweetest thing ever. I think I've watched it 10 times already.

Might spend some time with a friend from work later tonight but I'm not sure what the plan is.

Pretty much going to spend the day trying not to dwell on the fact that at 6:30 tomorrow morning the person I love most in this world is coming to have me sign the divorce judgement so it can be submitted to the court and finalized tomorrow morning at 9....

I did kind of accidentally see that she had contacted a counseling service last week. I do hope that goes well for her and can help her work through her stuff.

I know this is mind reading but with how combative she became towards me in the last week (when we had been doing really well and taking steps forward, small steps but steps) I have a feeling it is to try to get me to argue with her and reassure her of her decision. She's gone through a lot the past couple of weeks and I haven't been there to support her or celebrate anything with her and it must be hard to be going through all these health changes again but this time with no one to help her. I was the one that helped and supported her last time and went to all her dr. appointments and scans and bloodwork and now it's just her on her own.