I Guess husband is stuck in a MLC

[Coly23]

Hi AmyTx! I recently joined the MLC forum and just caught up with your thread.

I like everyone else am sorry that you find yourself here but I think you are doing great considering you are not long post BD. My H dropped the bomb between Xmas and NY 2015 and after a hellish 5 months eventually moved out at the end of May. I have only just started to feel human again in the last two weeks! If you check out my threads on Newcomers you will see how I ruminated, tied myself up in so many knots and the amount of tantrums I wanted to throw! I just felt so stuck in my own misery and pain I couldn't find a way out. All I really wanted to do was call H and shout down the phone 'I don't want to play this game anymore!'. So I know where you are coming from on the tantrum side!

I cried literally every day from the day he left and if it was the weekend all day. During the week I used to come home in my lunch hour and collapse in heap on the floor like I didn't have a single bone in my body and sob my heart out. Then put my makeup back on go back to work and cry in front of my two male heads of department! But as everyone says on here it will get better, I can go a whole day without crying sometimes now!

That knot in my stomach has now gone and my appetite is slowly returning. I know longer feel like I need my H to come home as I can cope with most things on my own and the two weeks I have gone dark has really helped. I would still love for my H to come home though.

I know you don't want this, none of us chose to have to go through this but at the end of the day we either get dragged Into their circus or we go on our own journey of discovery. I'm slowly getting there and you will soon I promise.....