Journaling:

There was a real high this week when H told me he loved me and was glad we were married. It felt like the end of the crisis (although obviously, the changes I made need to stay and become a permanent part of our lives).

And then, a few days later, he talked about feeling depressed and low-energy. I was really hoping the depression would stay away for a while. I'm trying to dig deep and use all of my detaching and coping skills to not panic and not make it worse than it is.

I'm hoping that since the low libido situation is better than it's ever been, maybe we can come through this bout of depression without entering a marital crisis. What I have learned about detaching and self-validation will hopefully keep me from getting sucked into the depression with him and will help me be a lighthouse.

Still. Wouldn't have minded a bigger break.


Me: 44
H: 44
Kids: 20, 16, 16, and 10
Together/Married: 22 years
H announced he was emotionally detached and considering D: 4/4/16
H announced he is going to try to stay and reconnect: 5/1/16