Breathe! You are stronger than you think. Sure, you could have been more supportive and pretzeled yourself into knots trying to make him happy, but the bottom line is this, he would still have had his crisis whether he was w/you, another woman or single. You had a lot on your plate yourself and your health issue took a toll on you and your focus had to be on beating the cancer and recovering.
Amy, you have to have faith and believe that things will work out. It may not be the way you want it to work out, but no one knows how your situation will play out. Don't look too far ahead, keep your focus on today, tomorrow or even next week. The past is gone, the present is a gift to use wisely and the future is not ours to see just yet.
You will get through this...but you need to mourn and that takes time.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
