Rouky, I wish I could hug you. I know the pain of knowing your kids have met OW.
I think you need a new GAL activity that is out of your comfort zone & will take your mind off of your H for a while.
Me: 35 husband:39 Sons 16 and 11 from my first marriage Twins 5 (boy/girl) Daughter 3 Affair bomb 2/27/14 He moved in with ow 3/13/14 OW kicked him out 6/15/14 4/2016 he seeks help for sexual addiction