Newcomers can gain a lot of comfort from reading Mules and CTs posts above. Know that there is a point where you can manage the pain and even push past it. It's not as dark as it seems when you first begin the journey.
Hi lt,
I think you just summed up why I came back to post for a while and see if I can help people. It's not as dark, in fact it's pretty darn sunny. You either have a great new R with your spouse. Or you have a second chance with a better you and a much smarter you.
Strength and Honor.
Mules
M 43 W 44 M 17 T 22 S16,12,9 Bomb 2/05/08 I served her 1/06/09 S'd 3/15/09 D'd 12/21/09
"Tough times don't last, tough people do." --My Dad to me years ago, me to my boys now.