Yes, I feel a physical pain sometimes. Like a dull ache in my left hand chest cavity. I just feel like this is never ending. 18 months and I don't feel that anything is moving on.
Anyway, in a 'you couldn't make it up' moment today, my nephew who I haven't spoken to in 15 years, showed up at my workplace. Not wanting to dredge up a story, but we lost contact when my mum died and my three sisters engineered a solution to deny me of any inheritance. Today he appeared and said that 'God had shown me the way'. Now, I'm not religious at all, but if that's his belief, then who am I to argue. Unfortunately we couldn't chat long as I was off for my train to pick up the kids. He told me that he always thought of me as 'his father figure' as he has never met his biological father. An unbelieveable situation. I've agreed to meet him on Sunday, when the kids have gone.
In other news, W arrived with the kids and she has started to wear some items of jewellery that I bought her or had repaired for her. She was wearing her Aunt's ring that had lost some stones, which I had repaired as part of her 50th birthday and a black rose stone ring that I bought her the previous Christmas. She saw me notice the rings, so she hid them in her coat pocket. She was wearing them on the middle finger of her ring hand. I haven't seen her wear those rings since BD, especially the rose one, as she seemed to have problems with the metal elements.
Bit of a blistering end to the afternoon and not exactly what I thought the day was going to be like.
M 45 W 52 SD22 S9 D8 BD 6 April 2015 Not living together 4 Dec 2015
