SoEffingLost---Please help 2

[JRuss]

lostasf -- I just wanted to say I understand what you're going through. I have battled depression and debilitating rumination, and I know that it can just sap all of your energy. Do anything you can to push through it, though, because the doing of things, anything really, will get you going on the path you want to be on. Pick one thing you want to accomplish today that has nothing to do with anything or anyone but you and do it. Then pick another thing. Repeat, over and over. I promise you that you will find relief from the tortuous thinking. It won't happen overnight, but it will break the ruminative cycle long enough to give you some relief.

I would also highly recommend trying to develop a meditation practice. I'm not exaggerating when I say it, along with IC, saved my life; or, more accurately, it gave me the ability/tools to start to live a life again that's worth living.