Life has changed, and I choose to grow from it.

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Thank you Phoebe, roist and Grl!!!
The pride has continued on into today.
I shared the video with folks at work and family and friends and the outpouring has been wonderful.

Ginger...Thank you so much for your thought and advice...
It helped me to confirm the decision that I made.
Yes...like a school girl...Thank you for making me feel attractive today, cuz, I was gushing all day!!

Journaling...

My day has been a wonderful one with moments of emotion...the good kind.
I shared the link to the news story with everyone I could...I know that d18 is going to meet her goal for her project.

I also came to a decision for d6 and fall break.
D6 pulled me aside yesterday and said, would you change my time with you so I can visit grandma. She told me that the whole family was invited and If I would go. I told her that I could not, but that maybe it would be a good idea to talk to her mother and see if she could go. She told me Thank you.

I knew in that moment what I needed to decide and no rational nor other reasoning mattered...
This was about D6...she has a good relationship with her grandparents, and she of all people right now needs the opportunity to cultivate these sorts of relationships.

I decided to let WAW know...
She was surprised...
She said that she was sorry that D6 had brought it up to me because she had not told her that she was checking with me.
This morning when I dropped d6 off, she told her mother I said she could go.
WAW apologized several times..
I replied, I want to do what is right for D6...no matter what...nothing between us should ever stand in the way of that.
WAW agreed and then asked if we could swap some other days so that I do not lose any time with D6...I told her we can work something out, and for now to go ahead and plan the trip and let me know and not to worry much about those details.

First cordial conversation...almost more than just cordial, there was not an ounce of anger, nor spite...It was plain pleasant to speak with her for a few moments.

With all that is going well and the source of much of my pride and hoy being my daughters, I ran across a song that I have not heard for years, but I know the first time I heard it, it invoked strong emotions form d18....and now the song struck the same chord for both lil angels for me...one D that is nearing the end of the song, and the other D being the one at the beginning.

Butterfly Kisses
Bob Carlisle
There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from heaven,
And she's daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night,
She talks to Jesus, and I close my eyes.
And I thank god for all of the joy in
My life, but most of all, for

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"Walk beside the pony
Daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny,
Daddy, but I sure tried."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning,
And butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet sixteen today,
She's looking like her mamma
A little more every day.
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and makeup,
From ribbons and curls.
Trying her wings out in a great
Big world. but I remember

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you daddy,
But if you don't mind,
I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."
Oh with all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right.
To deserve her love every morning,
And butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Ohhh like the wind, when the years go by
Precious butterfly
Spread your wings and fly

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise,
And I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride room
Just staring at her,
She asked me what I'm thinking,
And I said "I'm not sure,
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
Then she leaned over and gave me

Butterfly kisses, with her mama there
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk me down the aisle daddy, it's just
About time"
"Does my wedding gown look pretty Daddy?"
"Daddy don't cry"
Oh with all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning,
And butterfly kisses
I couldn't ask god for more, man, this is
What love is
I know I've gotta let her go, but I'll always
Remember
Every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses
There's two things I know for sure
She was sent here from heaven,
And she's daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night,
She talks to Jesus, and I close my eyes.
And I thank god for all of the joy in
My life, but most of all, for

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"Walk beside the pony
Daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny,
Daddy, but I sure tried."
Oh, with all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve a hug every morning,
And butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet sixteen today,
She's looking like her mamma
A little more every day.
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and makeup,
From ribbons and curls.
Trying her wings out in a great
Big world. but I remember

Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer.
Stickin' little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you daddy,
But if you don't mind,
I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."
Oh with all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right.
To deserve her love every morning,
And butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Ohhh like the wind, when the years go by
Precious butterfly
Spread your wings and fly

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise,
And I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride room
Just staring at her,
She asked me what I'm thinking,
And I said "I'm not sure,
I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
Then she leaned over and gave me

Butterfly kisses, with her mama there
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair
"Walk me down the aisle daddy, it's just
About time"
"Does my wedding gown look pretty Daddy?"
"Daddy don't cry"
Oh with all that I've done wrong,
I must have done something right
To deserve her love every morning,
And butterfly kisses
I couldn't ask god for more, man, this is
What love is
I know I've gotta let her go, but I'll always
Remember
Every hug in the morning, and butterfly kisses

I have not been getting as much sleep as I should...not having issues sleeping, just staying up late reading and waking early to go jogging...
It is catching up...

I hope and pray for good things for all of you here...it is a long road...it does get better...Peace to all of you.

A good quote to end my thoughts this evening came to me from a friend...
It is the simple truth and guide by which we all need to stay focused on in our journeys.

"Doing the right thing - is never wrong"