Me: "If that's how we are viewing the counseling, let's get the separation and custody agreements figured out. Then let's focus on the coparenting w/ a counselor."
W also got a new phone yesterday and is pushing me to remove my phone from the joint account. Told her I'd get to it when I'm less busy.
All, at this point I'm just too tired to give a damn about this or her. She seems gone and I'm willing to let her go. For some reason the past two days have brought back thoughts of her and OM and I'm finding I don't care what she does now. Sure it hurts to think of my W being w/ someone else, but I don't want to be with her if this is who she is.
I sent a note to my L to ask if there's any disadvantage to us doing the custody/separation agreements since her Ls seem to be dragging their feet. I just want to focus on custody of my D and getting to, at worst, 50/50 joint custody. I love my job, but if that's a detriment to having 50/50 then I'll find another one that fits the schedule. I'm willing to do whatever is necessary to make that work.
It seems that certain thoughts of my W will always hurt at times. She's so far from being the person I want to be around though that I'm just done w/ her. I want off this rollercoaster. If she changes then maybe we can think about it in the future, but I don't see a path where that happens.
Rich/Sandi/MV/Fade, thank you all for your thoughts. Fade, that's extremely helpful on the custody piece. I'd been looking at similar and would love the weekly split. I want my D, but I want our time to be away from my W. That seems like it'd be a better fit.
You all are the best and I appreciate your thoughts and support!
Me39 M11 : T13 D9 BD 5/31/16 In House S until 6/21/17 Divorced 10/5/18
