Darkness, I'm not sure what is holding me back. That's what I am really struggling with
Obviously I am not content with moving from husband to friend.
I truly am trying to get myself to start doing things, but I just find myself paralyzed....constantly playing through every scenario, every outcome, and a new one for me is thinking about her having sex with another person and kids. It is absolutely crippling me. I know I sound like a big baby, and quite honestly I feel like it...I just don't know how to pull myself out of it.
