Your h may be the type that you won't see anything happening until much later on. The work is being done internally and unfortunately, we don't always get an opportunity to see the work in progress. Until his crisis is over, you may not get a glimpse of the "finished product". He may very well be like my xh and remain stuck...no one knows for sure what will happen.
You've come a long way and have grown by leaps and bounds. I would suggest that you continue as you have been and if you want to leave the door ajar, that's okay. This crisis leaves all of us changed. No one remains the same once the dust settles. We, the lbs, take our rose colored glasses off and see the world differently and we, like the MLCers, are not the same. So, if you do reconcile, it will be a new relationship, starting out as friendship because you both will have changed in many ways.
You are the prize and never forget that. I do hope that one day soon he wakes up realizes what he is losing.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
