Phase 2 contd.

[Pax_luv]

Thank you Pinn and Esame! It's just feel sick still. I worked really hard and every aspect of my life has improved as a result of this event, but h has never once ever steered from his path. He may be one of those people that MWD mentions in her book- once they close the door, it's closed for good. Nothing is going to pry it open.

I can't be greedy because everything else is great. I guess I would have just liked an opportunity to even see if we could do things differently.

However, I also know with certainty, had he come back, I still would have bore the weight of our marriage ending. He hadn't/ hasn't done the work to acknowledge his side in it. It's perfectly natural to throw out ultimatums to get your way, right?!? Had we tried again, It probably wouldn't have lasted. Also, knowing that I would never ever go back to the r we once had, I'm not certain I would still fit with him with this new lens that I see the world in.

Not saying I'm this perfect catch..... But I'm certainly no where near the same person I was when he left me.