Georgiabelle, thanks for stopping by! I thoroughly enjoyed your "wordy" post! (I might be the wordiest on here, so I loved it). I wish we could hang out, you are my kind of people! really, thanks for the compliments. Whenever someone says to me "you only have one kid?" I say yup, "she's 1x10!" I am also an only child, so I might be why people stop at one too!
Linda and Georigia, yes! I can handle myself alone, live my life, but yeah, I would love to grab an ice cream with "my guy" and my kid. Or have someone bring me coffee and rub my back and talk about our days. I'm sort of like a junkie, I had my first taste of that with exNG in so many years, I could totally go for that high again. My favorite times were when I got up there on a Friday, he's have dinner ready, pour me a glass of wine, and light the fire (literally) and ate dinner on together on the couch, then just talked and cuddled. I'd say I'm more of a recovering addict. I wouldn't do ANYTHING for a hit of that again. I'm keeping my smart pants on (pun intended). I don't just want anyone or to get it from anywhere. Just like I'll wait for the right home to buy, I will wait for the right guy to date. Gainfully employed and not a psycho or a criminal would be nice. I don't think it's asking for much.
It's funny, certain things that are so normal to others seem so incredibly elusive to me. Getting pregnant seemed like an impossibility and I couldn't believe it when the IVF worked (and then I almost miscarried) then the pregnancy turned around. It was surreal. Having a family, raising a child together also seemed surreal. I guess it was. Having a real relationship seems almost completely elusive also. Like it's a fairytale. But I see people in them everyday. I will tell you, if it ever happens, I'll never take it for granted.
