Vey detached, no longer anxious, in limbo

[Cherry]

Oh honey, I'm sorry you're feeling so icky at the moment. Things have a habit of creeping up to us and hitting us with one fellow swoosh. There's a lot going on for you at the moment, and it's fine to admit that you're feeling a bit low. Please don't beat yourself up about your H'S journey of waywardness. You're a good kind person, and he's a fool! Hindsight is a wonderful thing, I'm sure most of us look back and find events that happened and we think but maybe if I'd stepped in here or intervened here.. the problem is we just end up eating away at ourselves. I agree, I too battle the thoughts of how can I trust someone again whole heartedly. And this is something I can't answer, but maybe we will because as time goes on- the pain will ease, and if someone has the opportunity to come into our lives in that way, it will come natural.

Take comfort in your land and all the little animals you have racing around. You're so lovely and caring, and they bring you great joy. Maybe do something easy and restful today.

I'm sure the d thing will cause you further stress, especially as it's constantly looming. I think mine would be super speedy, I don't particularly want it to be, but me and wh are on talking terms and have pretty much agreed upon most things. It's just a case that I need to go to mediation with him and get it drawn up in writing, my main concern is that if my children and full custody which he agrees too (of course he does, he doesn't want responsibilities! ) it's only if he changes his mind that I shall leap into action and defend myself and take it to court. I feel for you that it looks like it is set to go there.

Do something to bring you joy today, take a calm day to yourself today, or if you would feel better- invite a friend over to spend the day relaxing with you. Just please go easy on yourself. You're a fighter for sure, and you've travelled miles, this is just a little dip. Acknowledge that and then get working on keeping you happy. We all have these crummy days.