Here is the start of my 6th thread on the eve of the 15th month anniversary of bomb drop. WW is coming back. I would say we are on the verge or in the early stages of piecing but... can I do this.
Recap: I have known WW since we were 10, we were neighbors. Our first real relationship started when I was 17... she dumped me 3 years later (deservedly so by the way).
The next 7-8 years we were off and on always on her terms. I went complete no contact for about 9 months when she called 7 years ago. I debated picking up that phone but I did and we got back together for 6 years, married for 2.
15 months ago so dropped the bomb, moved out 3 weeks laters and started hanging out with a felon (I don't know many details nor do I care).
After she moved out, I went NC for about 3ish months (no email, texts or anything). Then there was sporadic contact, temp checks etc Nov-March. At the end of March, I saw WW for the first time in 8 months.
The next 2 months, contact was sporadic. I gave up again until she asked if we could get together. I agreed and thought the convo did not go very well so left it at that. Our anniversary came and went, she wanted to get dinner, I declined.
We did eventually start to see each other more and more. I forget who pushed for it. But we have been 'dating' since the end of June. At the beginning it was once a week to once every 10 days or so. Last weekend we saw each other every day. She texts me a lot. Physical contact is there though not intimate. She gave me a nice apology for everything. Last weekend she mentioned going to get consoling and is definitely talking. The details are buried in the past threads (I should go back and read).
So we will see where this goes. It is scary for me to be in this spot. It is hard. In a lot of ways, NC was the easy part. We will have to talk more. I am curious if she really wants children or not. Thanks to everyone in the help getting me to this point regardless how it turns out. This board has kept me from doing some very stupid things over the past 15 months or so.
