Maybs - Pt 4 - where to now?

[Cherry]

I'm in the same kinda thought process as you at the moment. I get occasional sad feelings now the d is in process. After a disturbed night sleep of several dreams about him last night, I had more of a sadness wash over me today, I realised that I do really miss him.

I've also had the "what do I have to loose" thought process. Where I've thought of throwing out how I feel. I don't think it would make a difference to him right now. But he knows full well this is not something I want. He did throw me up in the air a couple weeks when he said that he thought he may be making a mistake, and that he thought I would do more to stop him. But then in true wayward style, a few days later denied saying that he was making a mistake.

Sorry I can't really offer any advise here, but just letting you know that I know exactly how you feel in this situation right now.