Mmmm, that's tricky although she must have known how hurt you were to say those things. But also you didn't throw her out or you weren't the one to leave so surely she must have an inkling that you don't want to D....
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')