Life is kicking my butt

[qt4x11]

Here is more craziness. My wife's veneer of 'innocence' is starting to crack.

Some backstory: when my brother got married he gave the groomsmen a wedding present. A pretty cool silver whiskey flask engraved with: "Cheers Mother F****er!!! "

Last night I'm alone in the house and I get hungry. I decide to look in the cupboards for something to eat. I open up one of the cupboards and what do I see? Right in front of my face, I thought I had lost it. But the silver flask from my brothers wedding that says:

"Cheers Mother F****er!!! "

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Also, today I withdrew money from our shared business account to pay lawyer bills. Later I am in my therapy group and I get the following shocking texts from my wife.

Wife: [censored] just withdrew another 2 grand from my business
W: Om going to scream
W: That wasnt meant for you but o am really upset
W: Sorry for the language.

Then my response

Me: Wow I am struggling too probably a lot worse than u financially
Me: I didn't know you viewed me as such an enemy now I'm really trying to do right through all of this
Me: It makes me so sad to realize how everything has changed to ... This

So, I'm basically in a state of shock about these things. To think I spend the first two months of our separation trying to be the nice guy and make it right between us. All the while she has so much contempt and hatred for me. I don't even know what I'm fighting for anymore with her. She sees me as the villain in her life and an enemy. I really think she is trying to ruin me as much as possible in this divorce.