Life is kicking my butt

[qt4x11]

I'm almost ashamed to write this. Ever since I moved back to my marital residence, I have really been struggling emotionally. The divorce has really hit home, and I've been talking to my therapist about it.

My therapist has suggested that I enter an 'intensive outpatient program' at the hospital. I guess he is scared that I will ... hurt myself. I have been very blunt with him during our sessions about the despair and the suicidal thoughts (not serious, but it has crossed my mind).

This is a six week program that takes most of the day. I'm on my second day here. I don't know how much it's helping me.