I'm so sorry about the condo. Things happen for a reason and maybe, just maybe, there is another one out there that is much more to your liking. I would keep my eyes and ears open. I know that people in my area tend to relocate around the holidays, i.e., military base, so you just might happen across a place in the next couple of months.
Sotto has posted a really nice posting and I agree w/her comments on loneliness. We have to deal w/that and become our own best company first before we get involved w/a new partner. Give yourself some time...you are grieving the loss of the relationship that you have w/the former NG.
Try not to be so hard on yourself. You've got a lot going on and if the house doesn't get cleaned right away, no one is going to handcuff you. The dust bunnies can wait a few days or even a week.
Please take care of yourself.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.
