I am Feeling a lot better about things and getting along with the W. She has been very suspiciously kind to me in past month. Im not sure what is going on with her but its better than it was. I am at a point however that I don't want to be with her again. So much has happened that I will never look at her the way I once did. I don't know if this is natural or not. I understand that in a perfect world, our family would be together again. Its not a perfect world. I have been worried this whole time that as soon as I was at a point that I was through, she would start to want me again. Im not saying that she does but the way she talks to me now makes me think that something is changing.
As you all well know, this situation stinks no matter where you are in the healing process. I think a lot about the mess I was before and how depressed this made me. It was a really dark time and I couldn't have gotten through it with out you all. I am forever grateful.
M:39 W:40 S:10 S:7 D:12 BD:3/5/15 Separate BR:3/5/15 W moved out with kids 1/3/16
