Sorry to read about the condo Ginger - that's a shame. Maybe now you know that complex is viable and you like it, you could keep an eye out for another one there? It's nice when somewhere we didn't think was in our range, actually is..
As for the loneliness. I'm not sure that a new partner is the answer to that and I think it is important to deal with the loneliness first separately. Short of finding a new partner, how can you bring more connection and joy into your life right now?? Maybe a couple of goals in this area might be helpful?
I just noticed with your Ex that you seemed to jump to a negative take on his contact with his D. My thought was - maybe he missed her? I think it's good to watch out for the negative interpretation of actions...we all do it, but it's good to catch ourselves and call ourselves out on it.
I also think - you are still grieving the loss of the new R you had, which you had hopes for. That's understandable and you will grieve for a period of time and then the grief will come to an end and life will feel lighter again.
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T 13 M 7 Me 48 H 46 SS 15 BD 7.14 PA D final 5.16 (H filed)
We receive & we lose, and must try to achieve gratitude & embrace with whole hearts whatever of life that remains after the losses - Dubus