6 Months since she said i dont love you (4)

[Natus]

stbx got sent to Dubai for training. S5 been with me the whole week and then until 2nd Oct. Its been awesome but also triggers, a constant reminder that we are no longer a happy family.

I make sure we play and go to the park and get ice cream but at the end of the day after putting him to sleep my mask cracks a little bit.

I hoped i was further along the detached train however a stupid episode and a dream where she was walking around with another man woke me up and left me feeling sick to my stomach.