I'm sorry to see you here and read your story. I think it will be helpful for many to read, as so many people finding this site think if they just file for D it will end this ride and they can get back to normal.
I think you demonstrate well that the piece of paper doesn't change your feelings, and that almost 2 months after your D your just finding this site and looking for closure.
I will tell you what sticks out the most to me.
1. I don't think you are ready to be in a R, and I hope you really consider the situation you are bringing the new girl into.
2. You didn't have the luxury of DB principles for the last year when dealing with your sitch, but you didn't mention what have you done for yourself to improve yourself? (counseling, getting in shape, getting a life)
I hope you keep posting, there are quite a few post D posters on this site that have been there and can provide support.
M - 9 1/2 years 5/5/16 - Bomb drop - 3 week EA 10/31/16 - We sold house 01/10/18 - D Finalized
