So met with W today to exchange boys. I had all 4 of the kids and it's a weekend where they all go. Older 2 kids mom could t leave until later so W suggested we meet for supper. With all 4 kids.

I got there about 30 minutes before her and we were eating when she got there ( she left late...). And though conversation was pleasant enough there was nothing really. She seemed to follow a bit as I moved stuff over to her car.

I was hoping I might get a hug or a discreet touch of the arm. All I got was a comment on my facial hair and shoes. And not positive ones. She has always hated mustaches and mine is growing in a bit.

On another note she and D 12 have asked if one weekend D12 could go to her place for a girls weekend while I have the boys.

I am not sure what to do with that. I don't have a problem with it, I don't want her getting her needs met by it tho. Yet I can also remind her what she is missing out on.

The lack of anything today has me deflated. I did play it cool tho In my view. Acted like it was another day. Said that's nice I like my shoes and hey are comfy when she disapproved of them.

Now for a week of me and the puppy. Back to real life. I'm really trying not to feel sorry for myself and get past it. Just seems tough right now.

The person that you will spend the most time with in your life is yourself, so make yourself as interesting as possible.