WHs do come back--Piecing--acceptance & time

[BluWave]

Ahhh, thank you, Solid Heart. I could say the exact same to you!

So, I am starting to realize that I have cast a bit of a dark cloud over DB land. Here I am 18 months into H being back, and I am still telling you that I have mixed feelings about H and my M. Perhaps it is easier to post about the negative? So here is some positive.

There are a few things I have been telling my H and asking for our entire relationship and M. Just little things that are important for me in a romantic R. These things are even more important now, as we have been overcoming the separation and the A. Some of these things are hard for H to do as it's not in his nature and out of his comfort zone. I have been telling him lately how important it is to me and I realize I now need that for this M to survive.

So this weekend he tried. It was slightly awkward and not perfect, but the principle that he made the effort is what counts. So we ended up having a nice date and evening together. No amazing fireworks, haha, but it was nice in that I felt more connection than I have felt lately. Do I feel more or less hopeful? Not really, just working on acceptance and living day by day.

-Blu