Wow, Ciluzen! Preparing your grad school app already?! That's fantastic! What kind of program are you wanting to get into? I'm glad to hear your personal life is going well. Blows my mind to think that it's going to be ski season again already! Can someone please tell me where 2016 went? Eesh!
Re: your h. You loved him.... He loved you. I would hope that he would show some compassion towards you especially while divorcing. You're right, you can't ask.... Even if you did, would you get a straight answer? Just have to let him be and figure it out for himself. In the meantime, kudos to you for remaining level headed and moving ever forward in your life.
All the best-
Me- 30's H- 40's T-10 M-5 I moved out b/c he wanted space- June 15 D filed by H: September 16