Sorry I haven't been around much. In my current state just being on here and seeing all the people that are just beginning the journey and all of us still living the pain everyday I just can't look all the time. I feel pain in every new sitch I read.
As for you my friend, we have had a similar journey and are at a similar point in our journey.
We have come so far and been beat down as far as we can be beat down. But that's just it there is a limit. I know I couldn't go any further down so now each day I am slowly rising up and feeling some purpose again.
You WILL be ok. Days WILL get better. It's like everyone tells you when you first get here. Detach! Well only now do I truly know what it means and what it feels like. It's knowing you have done everything you thought was right. It's being pushed as far as you can be pushed. And now as sad as it is I know my W is gone. Maybe for good maybe not but the point is I have let go and am not hanging in her every word or text or sitting around hoping she will walk back in the door.
Seriously this is the hardest thing for most people on here to comprehend but until you can let get and block them out you are living in a prison and it's so toxic. Life is short take the hits and fight back. You are strong Gump I know you will continue being a great dad and have a bright future that will bring happiness again.
ME- 31 W-25 T-5 M-3 D2 ILYBNILWY and moved out - FEB16 W seeing someone else - JUL16
