WW Starting to talk again. Not sure if I want her.

[Surfer]

Something is on my mind.

My W asked if I wanted to see the kids yesterday. To take them to the cinema or something. I did, they wanted to see me, so we went and had fun. I think this was the right thing to do on balance. But underneath I felt I was helping my W out. I don't mind this per se and she thanked me and said it helped her to get things done as she was having family round later. I would normally be invited to this gathering and I miss it. I miss them.

I think there is a little bitterness in me at having missed out or not been invited but I need to let that go. Which I can - it's only a minor thing.

However, my question is am I letting her eat cake. She would have been in a terrible grump if I had left her to it, trying to get everything straight at home shouting st the kids and getting stressed. It would not have been fun for them.

She thanked me for having the kids but had a slightly wry smile that I am mind reading as minor disrespect. I therefore have mixed feelings, it's hard to find the line between letting them eat cake and being kind. I am not sure if I crossed it. Can anyone help with this?

I think I perhaps need to worry less about my W's respect and more about my own respect for myself.

Still no mediation meeting.

W got a reminder for her unpaid fine - now probably over £500. I advised them of her new contact details as I don't want a court judgement against my home address if it comes to that.

Surfer.