HalfTheMan & MLC-W

[HTM]

Struggling a little tonight/this-morning. Fell asleep on the couch for about 4hrs then on retiring to bed couldn’t sleep with too much spinning around my head.

W is away for the night & I know she's spending it w/ OM, it's fairly evident to me considering what she was wearing when leaving the house yesterday afternoon.

As W was saying goodbye to Ss in a separate room, I overhear S8 mention to S11 that mummy was staying over at granddads -of course she is! I also overhear S11 ask if my W was seeing her g.f., W's usual cover story, but got the impression she avoided answering the question by walking into the kitchen, where I was, to collect her keys and then leaving.

After she’d left I took Ss over to my sisters to see the newest addition to the family, my nephew's baby girl, born a few days ago. While there the boys have fun with their cousins, I catch-up with both sisters as well as BIL and of course great uncle HTM gets his cuddles with the little one

We return home and I get Ss off to bed. I’m in a good enough place to deal with W being away w/ OM until I open a joint bank statement. W & I are gathering relevant financial documentation for ongoing mediation and she must have requested this statement from the bank. As it’s addressed to both of us I open it. On closer inspection I find a debit card purchase which confirms she was in the vicinity of OM's place a few weeks ago; he's 3hrs away from where we live.

As detached as I’ve become it’s strange how finding this affects me. I’ve known for a while that she covertly sees OM. A few days ago I saw her taking a selfie to message him with. Even worse, just this week think I almost walked in on her having phone sex! IMHO I deal with all of this so well but then a little detail like an entry on a bank statement has my mind reeling.

Need to get this off my chest this morning as in my current frame of mind, I’m likely to explode at her when she walks through the door later today.