In one post you say that your done, you're going to file and end this, then in the next you say unfortunately she said it would be done if you make the S legal...
It's completely normal, you don't know what you want (except for this not to be happening at all), and she doesn't know what she wants either...
Your best bet is to stop being concerned what she wants, just figure out what's best for you. Did the L recommend making it legal so she doesn't spend her half of the money then get half of yours if you D? Don't file, or not file, based on what you think her reaction will be, do what is best for you.
This is a long road, and will get so much easier in a few months, just really try and focus on you for now.
M - 9 1/2 years 5/5/16 - Bomb drop - 3 week EA 10/31/16 - We sold house 01/10/18 - D Finalized
