WAS or what 7

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Z,

I am replying to your comments about my wife stating I was not alone. Better late than never!! If that made you cry, the week after if I had posted would have broken your heart!

Back to your words first. My situation is complicated and never simple to read. My W has said similar at various times throughout this. Maybe it is me. Truly I could be: incapable of doing what is needed. But it is: impossible to build on any such statements. I search and if there is a way I will find it. Until then I will not he crushed by not succeeding.

Maybe that will be my downfall, but I think both of us are unhappy with the current interactions/situation and we are both still here. She is a WAW who has not walked away. Without getting sidetracked I get back to my point.

My W is home with me every night. She does not engage in getting busy so that she is not available for me. Any and every time I have asked if she! Wants to do something together, it has been yes. She has been active in finding us couch based activities. I don't want to be just a TV buddy but still. My wife systematically takes a position that lets me approach closely and we always sit close. She could move a few cm and I would be blocked at distance by her feet.

Now for the sad part. The week after her not alone comment she got annoyed because I couldn't thinkof something for us to do one evening. I have been meaning to prepare a list of suggestions in such situations but for no good reason I have not done so yet.

I was just saturated and "not like this" was my mindset. I know this is not helpful but! sometimes we do what we can and that is it. Maybe there was no way to capitalize on this, but at the time I was more concerned about me.

The beer I had earlier is clouding my.thinking so instead of waffling I prefer to stop and retake it later

Z, you raised many other points I hope to reply to, for tonight I raise a final bottle to you. Cheers mate