Thanks SH, I'm trying. Must admit, I did just have a 2 minute weep, I was thinking about having the baby, and thought of the first time and it brought a tear to my eye. It was like seeing another man in my head, a man I haven't seen in a couple years, and I wanted him- not the man who is in his place today.

At least I guess I released a few emotions. And I shall let that be that.

Yeah exactly, I don't want to have to be involved in this, I told him from the start I do not want this so will not be a part of it. Showing me the papers before they are filed seems like I play a role in this. Plus why would he do this?! Why is it even worth showing me?! Questions I can't ask so will not ponder!

Prayers are always appreciated!

Me 26 H 25
M 4
T 5
Baby born 4/14
BD: 1/15
EA: 2/15
PA: 4/15
reconciling: 4/15
ILYBINILWY- 11/15
ILY-1/16
ILYBNILWY 4/16
ILY 6/16
ILYBINILWY 6/16
Baby due 3/17
BD 8/16