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Coly, I have no idea, he keeps saying that the situation we are in makes him want to stay away from the home.. I felt like telling him that I highly doubt that will improve once he has gone, maybe that's just my opinion.

Yeah a months upfront rent is paid and the deposit. And I don't know, I've told him I don't want to have to deal with any of this, and it could just go through my L..

Rose, I know you're right. And this is something I keep flipping from. The first time was a complete different experience. I had a very long and traumatic labour, I was in total over 2 weeks (5 days as an in patient in slow labour, the rest complications from a nasty tear and infections after). He was amazing, and kept me calm. But this of course was when he was my loving husband and I could trust him with anything.. I'm starting to think that my friend and mama would be a better idea. I need someone who loves me in there just in case all goes wrong again. I guess I have it planned and people ready to be there. It is definitely one of the most intimate moments of a woman's life, and you are totally vulnerable. I don't want an experience like Sara had with a h sat in the corner texting, that will just put me more anxious and angry.