Just keep plugging along

[roist]

I meant to drop by at the end of your last thread or earlier in this one.I felt the pressure brewing and wanted to try to help steer your thinking. Now my words are too late. I will just speak about recent postings.

Your frustration is valid. Your needs are unmet and that sukcs. Your suspicions are truly hard to deal with even if they appear to be fear based more than fact based. You are in a tough situation.
No doubt.

Your recent actions are undermining all your hard work over the last few months. You admit pressuring her. She had told you that you are. The only result pressuring her will achieve is to push her away. That is a fact.

I understand that accepting your current situation undermines what you feel is acceptable. Yes you deserve more, but this is just a phase to get through. It is not as good as it gets. It is not forever. But ur is your best chance to achieve what you want.

Look around this forum. You still have your W. Ye are in MC to improve things. She is saying a lot of the right stuff than most lbs will never hear although theywwould die to hear it. Long story short, you have a lot of positives and a good chance of making it. Better than many. Believe in that and dig deep for more patience. Patience will not be enough. You need to become better at controlling yourself. You know that.

Maybe she is stringing you along. Maybe she is elsewhere. Or maybe she is just unsure. If it is the latter you can win this war but she needs to see a better more consistent you.

I like the advice you just received and second it. You can save yourM but it will take a long time. So you can afford some time to find that passion for YOU.

Best wishes