Just keep plugging along

[cbtdad]

Cnut, that's makes perfect sense. I don't have a passion right now. Golf was a passion for a couples years a long time ago. I played a lot. I was down to a 4 handicap and I loved it. My other passion was college football. I could not wait for the fall. I always had a big tailgate and during away games I would have 15-20 people over and cook all day. I love it. But now I work Saturdays and that just isn't possible to do that anymore.
I do need to find a new passion. I think that is contributing to the issues
Rose888, I appreciate what you are saying. It makes sense to me. For me sex is "closeness" for whatever reason. So it's built up in me. I need to continue to work on understanding that she just isn't there yet and stop thinking the worst.

This morning I asked her what that quote meant again and she said, "you just keep pushing and pushing and pushing. Eventually enough is enough"
When things get like this I have a way of "pressuring" to make myself feel better. In all actuality it makes me feel so much worse. So why do I continue to do the same things. Things that do not work.
I am just trying to remind myself that this is the long haul. 2 steps forward one step back