I appreciate your being there, Coly. Your voice helps.
It sounded to me like your WH was quite a good father to you D, so you had no idea he'd be so unreliable now.
We should both try to beat ourselves up less, I suppose.
It's not logical though -- it just feels that way.
I have been trying to tell myself that after the D, I can make a happy, healthy, joyful home with my W, a home that the kids will be glad to come home to. I think I believe it, even if it doesn't quite cheer me up as much as I hope it would.
Greetings from 8 time zones away...
Me: 50, MLC/WW 45 Young kids Nov 2015: BD1 Apr 2016: BD2 Jan 2017: W filed Feb 2017: D final