Gump, you haven't failed your kids. You have tried really hard to avoid D so why is that failure?
I also keep beating myself up about failing my D. Putting her in a position whereby I put our lives and trust in the hands of a weak, selfish man. But you know when we get married we dont know that these things are going to happen so maybe failure is only possible when you attempt something you know will never work? But still that's not a bad thing otherwise we won't ever do anything because we are afraid of failing...
I'm not very eloquent with my words or very academic so all the above may not make any sense so I apologise if I have confused you!!!
Me - 47 H - 45 D-16 M - 6 years Separated - May 16
Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')