Mediation is a big deal Maybs so as Sara said give yourself a break and allow yourself to feel down for a bit.

Just remember you got over a huge obsticle and you are still standing. From now on you know you can face any challenge and you won't break. You are getting stronger every time....

Me - 47
H - 45
D-16
M - 6 years
Separated - May 16

Don't leave me behind can't you see me I'm shining... (Years & Years - 'Shine')