Really, you guys are so funny. Best responses ever.
So, I did not get my condo.
I nodded off multiple times at my desk today.
I forgot about my dad's cataract surgery yesterday (I thought it was last week and I called him) I forgot to call him, he is very upset with me, I feel absolutely awful and apologized profusely. He's still upset. I don't even know if I'm coming or going anymore.
My whole weekend is immersed in D9 events and other obligatory events and I have a whole paper to write. There is no one to lean on for help. It's just me all the way. I don't think ex and OWW are making it to anything this weekend am I am personally glad, because watching them as husband and wife actually pisses me off.
I am barely keeping it together, I am on the verge of a nervous breakdown. I'm emotionally and physically exhausted and I am upset with myself I can't be there the way everyone needs me in the capacity they need me. I am also upset that I have no one to lean on.
Sorry for the awful rant, but I have been faking it hardcore and no one has any idea how I feel IRL. I don't let anyone know.
The condo and me forgetting my dad was the icing on the cake today and I cried on the way home from work to pick up D9. Now I have to do dinner with my cousin and her family. So I took a Xanax.
I really want to run far far away. But of course I can't. Sh!t.
I could totally use a dirty joke right now to cheer me up.
