Trying to detach - part deux

[Coly23]

Hey Blu, thanks for swinging by.

I do remember some really awful events in my life and how much they hurt at the time, even months down the line. When we lost our baby I didn't think I would ever be happy but I did smile again and I know I will this time.

Just sometimes i get these flashbacks of the things he said to me and the sheer look of hate and disgust on his face whilst I begged and pleaded for him to stay. I just need to get those memories out of my head but at the moment they are still too fresh. When I get these flashbacks I really wonder why I am fighting for someone who has broken me.

At the moment I'm doing a really good job of faking it at work but as soon as I get home I'm just a big mess! I know I will get through this and I will be stronger on the other side. Sometimes I have to be dragged kicking and screaming before I face up to things!

Thanks Blu!